SOMEWHERE DOWN THE ROAD

"We had the right love at the wrong time."

Did you ever fall for someone you know you should not?  Tried hard to fight your feelings, but you just could not?  You fall deeper as each day passes by, but try to hide it in every way possible?  This is something that has happened to most people who fell in love with the right person at the wrong time.  That feeling when you just want to be with someone, but you know that it is not possible because there is someone else.

"Guess I always knew inside... I wouldn't have you for a long time."

While a person can always love, hope and dream for anything to happen, he/she must also consider the outcome no matter what.  Loving is an easy thing to do, but there comes a time wherein timing is everything.  It is not always the case that a relationship will work out when love is real, the time element must also be considered.  You may be in love now, but when reality plays its part, you know you cannot have someone for a long time especially when he/she is happy with another.

"And if they're calling you away... I have no right to make you stay."

They say that if you love someone, you should let the person go.  The question is, how can you let go of someone if your world revolves around that person?  Unconditional love, that is what you need.  When you love someone, you want to see him/her happy regardless of your own feelings.  Yes, the pain is too much to bear, but you will get over it soon, I guess.

"Sometimes goodbyes are not forever."

Most people say that if you are really meant for each other, love will always find a way to bring you back together.  Love is a mystery.  You never chose who to love and who will love you, it was all planned because love chooses you.  It also takes time to grow and when the right time comes, it will return to you in a manner you would not have expected and imagined.

"Letting go is just another way to say... I'll always love you so."

Letting go is never easy.  It can actually break you and give you so much pain that it becomes hard to handle.  A lot of people believe that when you let go, it is the end of a love that has made a great impact on you.  Truth is, it is the beginning of a greater love that has yet to come.

NOTE:

While it is true that it hurts to love the right person at the wrong time, this situation actually gives us a brief background of what real love in a real world is all about.  Experience is the best teacher.  No matter how many times people tell you to love another person because it is the right thing to do, you cannot because that is not how love goes.  When you fall for someone, you just love.  You may expect something in return, but at the end of each day, it just feels right to love someone even if the feeling is not reciprocated.

I honestly salute those people who choose to love even if they know that what they feel is wrong.  To the point that even if the world hands them thousands of reasons not to fall in love, they believe that there is one reason why they must still hold on to that feeling.  Because that feeling, that is TRUE LOVE.  But in the end, it is your choice to make.  You can choose to love someone even if you are in pain or choose to let go because you know that the love will not blossom any time soon.

To end this blog post, here is a video that is somehow similar to what I wrote here.  It made me realize something, so I hope it does the same for you. Credits to the owner of the video! :)

FALLING IN LOVE

Falling in love is one of the greatest feelings that a person might have.  No matter how painful the outcome may be, we choose to fall in love because we want to feel this one of a kind feeling that brings us to a new world.  I used to believe that I have fallen in love a couple of times already.  But this year, I just figured out that I have only been in love in my entire life once.  How did I find out?  I do not know for sure, but I do think that when you have found the right one, you will know how many times you have really fallen in love.  In my case, I believe that I found him.

 

How will I describe what I feel for him?  That I am not really sure of.  Why do I love him?  Honestly, I have no reasons.  Then how can I say that I found the one?  I think it is as simple as 1 2 3.  All my life, no one has ever made me feel that my world is turning upside down.  When I was engaged in relationships before, I used to think that love can survive even if there is only a single person who puts much of an effort into it.  But this guy, he made me realize that love is a two-way process and if you really want to work things out, everything is possible no matter how far you are from each other.

 

The current situation we are in is actually something hard.  It actually takes a lot of courage to work it out especially because of the distance that separates us.  But even if we are very far away from each other right now, I believe that no one else comes close to him.  He is everything I have wished for, every dream come true and every love worth fighting for. 

 

 

8TH WORLD WONDER

Each and everyone of us has our own 8th world wonders.  They may be in the form of an object, a pet, a place or a person.  But the 8th world wonder is commonly said to be a person who gives you an out of this world feeling.

I first read this story on candymag.com/teentalk.  I was around fourteen years old that time.  Honestly, I did not believe that this certain kind of thing does exist.  Like seriously, an 8th world wonder?  That is ridiculous.  I used to think that you just fall in love with someone and that's it.  But an out of this world feeling?  NAH!

Funny thing is after four years, my belief actually changed.  Here is the thing, I met a guy who turned everything upside down.  It was around 12:26 AM, 23rd of March 2013.  It all started as a random conversation with a stranger.  Sounds unbelievable, right?  You might actually think that it is not even possible.  Well, I met him online, in a site wherein the tagline goes like this: Talk to strangers!  Does that ring a bell?

So, how did it all begin aside from the fact that it was a random conversation with a stranger?  In that site, you have to write some of your interests.  When I pressed Text, I waited for some time and then the next thing I know, I was talking to him.  I thought it would be like those other conversations wherein we will get disconnected all of a sudden, but ours was a very different story.  At first, it was just a plain and normal conversation, then we exchanged digits.  Thanks to Viber, anything is possible!  Here is another thing, we are miles apart from each other.  Because of that, I thought goodbyes would actually be easy.

The next five hours were the best five hours of my life.  There were a combination of various feelings that came out of nowhere.  I was happy, sad, enthralled, but most especially, in love.  You might actually find it funny and you might actually think I am crazy, but that is the truth.  Ironic as it may seem, but I found my 8th world wonder in just five hours.

When we had to bid goodbye, it was the most painful feeling I have ever felt.  I was not ready, my heart was not ready.  There was something inside me that must be revealed.  Good thing is, I was not the only one who was feeling that way.  We were both in love, but we both know that the dream has its end.  It all happened in five hours.  Deep inside, I know it is real.  Maybe one day, maybe someday, we will both wake up again from this very nice dream.

Dear Stranger,

Thank you for being my 8th world wonder.  I don't know when I'll be able to talk to you again, but I'll surely be looking forward to it.  I hope you don't forget me because I won't forget how you touched my heart forever.  As much as I don't want to lose you, I don't have a choice.  Yes, I must admit, it is breaking me to pieces knowing that this will all end soon.  But while it is still here and I am not yet waking up, I want to cherish every moment.  If you can read this right now, I want you to know how happy I am that I met someone like you and I want to take this chance to tell you that I love you. I really do.

I REBOUND YOU

REBOUND RELATIONSHIP

A relationship proceeding a long-term relationship used to mend the broken heart

A situation wherein a person quickly gets involved with someone to prove that he has moved on

Fortunately, I have never been in a rebound relationship, but the thought of being in one actually makes my head hurt.   You must be wondering why I am writing about this if I have never experienced it.  Well, here is the thing, I have a friend who requested me to write something about it because she thinks that she is currently in one.  She asked me to share my thoughts about it and if possible, enumerate some signs to know if she really is in one.  Here it goes.

WHAT MAKES A RELATIONSHIP A REBOUND RELATIONSHIP?

This kind of relationship is easy to spot and recognize for what it is.  It is actually a band aid for the heartbroken and it serves as a distraction from all the unresolved pain and trauma of the rejection that you have just faced from your recent partner.  It is easy because you may feel as though a new relationship will get you past the old one.  When you are in a rebound relationship, you spend a significant amount of time focusing on your previous one.  Focusing on what could have been, what went wrong, what you have done instead, wondering if you did the right thing all throughout the relationship and a lot more.  Because of this, you are draining out the potential of your current one to be successful.

While it must be easy to figure out if you are still on the rebound, finding out if your partner is on the rebound is a lot tougher.  Some people will be more capable of hiding their feelings and thoughts which makes it harder for you to know if your relationship is REAL or REEL.  This means that you do not really have any clues about whether their behavior is normal or they are still affected by their unfinished business with the past.

WAYS TO KNOW IF IT IS REAL OR REEL

1. If he/she keeps talking about the ex

Since he/she is showing much interest with the ex, it only proves that he/she is not really ready to move on.

2. If he/she would drop the new love for the old love

If someone made him/her choose between the new love or the old love and he/she chose the old love, then it probably means that you are a rebound.

3. If he/she often compares you with the old love

Everyone wants to be loved for who they are.  If your partner keeps on comparing you, it surely means that you are a rebound because he/she wants to see the ex in you.

4. If he/she has a tendency to show you off in public

While this may be a good thing, you might also consider the fact that your partner might be doing this because he/she wants the ex to be jealous.

Those are the signs that I can think of.  There may be a lot more of them that I have not mentioned.  So, what is my main thought about this rebound thing?  Well, if you are in one, you better ask the person or even yourself if you really want to be in this kind of relationship.  This kind of scenario is really tough and you must put into consideration that this game is not for the faint-hearted. 

WHAT'S IN MY DAILY MAKEUP BAG?

Since I could not think of anything to write because it's my finals week, I decided to do a what's in my daily makeup bag.  You must be wondering why it's called a daily makeup bag.  It's because I have 3 makeup bags with different cosmetics inside every bag.  I don't really use makeup a lot, but I just think that it is a nice thing to have because you never know when you might use it, right?  So, here it goes.  :)

As you can see, there's my makeup bag.  I didn't actually buy it.  I got it for free in a magazine I bought last year.  I just couldn't really remember which magazine it was.  It looks small, but the truth is, you can actually put a lot of stuff inside it.

I was at this department store in Saudi Arabia last October when I decided to buy a new pressed powder.  At first, I thought of buying Max Factor, but then the shade that I have always had my eye on was out-of-stock.  So, I looked around the cosmetics' section and then, I stumbled upon the Rimmel stand over.  There were only two shades that time, but I thought that the 007 Mohair would most likely blend with my skin tone.  When I was at the counter, fortunately, I learned that it was at 20% off.  Lucky me!

I have always wanted to buy a Benefit product although I am not really into makeup.  It's just that I have read a lot of good reviews about it and I thought that buying one will be worth every penny spent.  So, when I was at Sephora, I was looking at a wide array of Benefit cosmetics when I saw this Georgia peach blush.  It was like love at first sight because when I tried it on, it looked natural on my face and I liked it just that way.

I like mixing and matching blushes, so I have three on my daily makeup bag.  The second one is from The Body Shop.  It is called 01 Roseflower Blush and it is a special edition.  I'm not really into pink blushes, but since my aunt gave this to me, I decided to give it a try and the good thing about it is that it's not too pink.  The only thing that I don't like about it is the smell.  Haha!  But I don't think that this blush is still available in TBS.

The last blush that I have on this makeup bag is Maybelline FIT Me! in Light Peach.  Although I love Georgia, I would choose this over it because this is more of a blush and it's much cheaper than Benefit.  I hope you get what I'm saying.  Anyway, I love mixing this blush with Guerlain Divinora Radiant Blush 535 Peche Metal which is not a part of this entry because it is on my other makeup bag.  Oh! By the way, this smells good unlike the one from TBS.

I've been seeing this product in a lot of international magazines that I've bought for the past few months and it was even a part of Allure magazine's Top something.  The only problem I had was it is not available in any department store here in the Philippines which actually sucks.  Fortunately, I scored some tickets for the Times Square Bazaar last February if I'm not mistaken.  While walking, something caught my eye from a distance. TADAH!  It was this.

I actually love lipbalms that is why I own tons of them.  But in my daily makeup bag, I have this H&M limited edition Disney lipbalm in Vanilla.  I really liked it when I first bought it, but then after some time, it does not smell good anymore that's why I'm planning to put my EOS lipbalm in summer fruit in this makeup bag instead.

Aside from lipbalms, I also love collecting lipsticks.  In this bag, I carry with me two lipsticks of different shades.  The first one is NYX Lip Smacking Fun Colors in LSS 621 Milan.  I have other shades of this brand, but this is the one I like the most.  The good thing about this lipstick is that it's not expensive.  One thing that is not good about it is that it wears off easily after an hour and you have to reapply it as often as you can.

The second lipstick in this bag is L'Occitane Fleur Cherie in Corail Brocart.  I have been searching for a lipstick that has a coral-pink color veil.  Fortunately, during my vacation in Saudi Arabia last October, I had the chance to try this lipstick and it is really good.  So, I immediately bought one.  It is also good that this lipstick has natural contents that is good for our lips.  The only problem with this is that it doesn't smell good at all.

If you have a lipbalm and a lipstick, you would most likely need a lip gloss.  The first lipgloss that I have here is Guerlain 03 Sparkling Sea by Emilio Pucci.  The color of the lip gloss in the picture is very different from how it looks like in person.  Anyway, it has very sparse blue and green glitters and it also creates a wet sheen on the lips.  I also find it awesome because it's blue and it really smells good. Haha!

Last but not the least, I also have my Chanel 41 Starlette.  It was a gift from my aunt.  I just can't remember when she gave it to me.  As much as I love the gloss, I couldn't find it anymore because I heard it's already phased out.  So, I have a few left inside the container and I really try my best not to use it too much because I don't want to finish it.  But I have to face the truth that I would have to bid goodbye to it one of these days.

That's all I have inside my daily makeup bag.  I'll try to blog about what's inside my other makeup bags very soon.  If you have any suggestions, feel free to comment below.  Love lots!

RELATIONSHIP STATUS: It's Complicated

"Love is the reflection of a broken heart in a shattered mirror."

- Anonymous

There are times in our lives wherein we perceive love negatively, but no matter how much we are in pain, we refuse to picture our lives without that one person who means the world to us.  Then again, there are those moments wherein we tend to just give up, lose hope and never look back because all that was left for us to look at are the painful memories of yesterday that we can never take back no matter what we do and no matter how much we try to.

I have been in love a couple of times already, but I am not quite sure if what I have felt for those boys who got away is really love.  Whenever I am asked to define love, I do not really know what to say.  And I think this is the part where being complicated when you are in love actually enters.  Maybe, just maybe, love is complicated because we cannot define it with a definite meaning.  For example: You love him, but you do not like his habits; You love him, but he gives you headaches; You love him, but he hurts you even if he does not want to.  Do you get what I am saying?  My main point here is for you, as long as you love him and the love is reciprocated that is all that matters even if your relationship is one hell of a roller coaster ride.

In my case, love has been one of my greatest achievements and downfalls.  When I am in love, I tend to just think of my partner's happiness and that is all I care about.  The wrong thing about that?  It is the fact that because I try my best to please my partner, I forget my very own happiness.  While it must be true that relationships bring you happiness, making yourself happy WHILE in the relationship is a completely different thing. You might not get my point right now, but when the time comes, you will eventually understand how I feel.

How funny love can make us happy, sad, cry and even laugh all at the same time.  Contrary to the previous paragraph I have written, in the end, though we know how love makes us crazy, we still choose to love because we know that the feeling of being complicatedly in love is still better than being single.  Yes, love is a tough terrain to hike on.  You will encounter endless dirt roads, but at the end of each day, you will still need somebody to lean on.

MY COLLEGE LIFE

"It's a hard life... but if I could, I would do it all again."

- Natalia Makarova

I came from a school wherein boys and girls were always together in a classroom.  It was fun and annoying at the same time, but I think that it is better that way.  It was indeed noisy and messy inside our room, but I can say that those were the best years of my life.  It is nice to have a friend who is from the opposite sex especially if he is just your classmate because he will always be there whenever you need him.  While growing up, most of my girl classmates would say that I am a flirt and all that negative stuff just because I was kind of boyish before.  Boyish in a sense that I get along with boys better than with girls.  Some may find it weird because they think that is better to have girl friends, but it was the other way for me.  While some may think that boys are insensitive, I would certainly disagree.  I believe that they have that common misconception because boys usually break their hearts, but if you really get to know them, you'll eventually think the same way I do.

Moving on, it was a big challenge for me 2 years ago to move to an exclusive girls school when I had to enter college.  I felt like I was in a mess.  I could not even stand a room full of girls, what more in a school full of girls.  There may be boys, but it is either they are deaf or they are my professors.  How great!  My first year in that particular school became really tough.  All those girls wearing HEAVY make-up as if they are going to a party, talking about boys most of the time, different way of speaking (Oh, you know, the typical: Ohemgeee! I think my nail polish just chipped off! What am I gonna do?! I am so screwed!).  If my previous school would be heaven, this would be the other way around.  It was really hard to talk to my classmates without hearing them whine about something.  One statement that would describe my stay here: I'M DOOMED!

I thought it was the end of my life, but after some time, I grew a liking to the people around me.  I realized that I had to somewhat adapt to their way of living and I am good to go.  Living in a world that is very much different to the world you got used to is really tough.  But then I realized, I cannot let the people around me ruin my chances of having a good future.  I just have to live my life and go with the flow.