Before I begin with what I am about to write, I would like to apologize for not being able to update my blog for quite some time. I went to a place wherein the modern world is not so much prioritized. HAHA! Silly as it may seem, but it is a fact. Anyway, let us go back to the real deal which is my blog post for today.
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I have written a post a few weeks back that is somewhat the same to what I am about to write. You may be wondering why I suddenly thought of making something similar, but if you haven't noticed, most of my blog posts are about the current situation I am facing and the emotions I feel that I cannot tell the people around me.
I believe that the people who read my blog are here for a certain topic, LOVE. I guess falling in love is something inevitable. Your emotions trigger your heart to feel things that you would rather not feel, ironic as it may seem. When falling in love, you expect to get your heart broken along the process. Even if you do not want to, you cannot help it.
A thing that remains questionable to me is how the feelings of others change all of a sudden? They make you feel special then next thing you know, they are gone without any explanations. All you can ever do after that heartbreaking scenario is cry yourself to sleep and ask yourself what you could possibly have done wrong. After experiencing it, you become such a denial queen/king and make yourself believe that it will be better eventually even if you know it will never be.
Honestly, I do not understand how you can smile all day, but cry yourself to sleep. How pictures you have taken months or years ago never change, but the people in them do. How the forever you have always planned turn into a few short months that you would do almost anything just to get back. How some things can hurt you even though you know for yourself that it is the best thing to do. How the people who once spent their every second talking to you think that a few minutes of their time is too much to spare. How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken. And the most important fact of all, how people can erase you from their lives just because it is easier than working things out.
These unwanted changes are some of the random things I think about everyday. Deep inside me, I know it will hurt even more if I comprehend these things. But then I realize, the more I think and get hurt, the more I grasp the fact that some things did not work out because better things await me. Maybe not now, but soon it will come my way.
