THE UNWANTED CHANGE

Before I begin with what I am about to write, I would like to apologize for not being able to update my blog for quite some time.  I went to a place wherein the modern world is not so much prioritized.  HAHA!  Silly as it may seem, but it is a fact.  Anyway, let us go back to the real deal which is my blog post for today.

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I have written a post a few weeks back that is somewhat the same to what I am about to write.  You may be wondering why I suddenly thought of making something similar, but if you haven't noticed, most of my blog posts are about the current situation I am facing and the emotions I feel that I cannot tell the people around me.

I believe that the people who read my blog are here for a certain topic, LOVE.  I guess falling in love is something inevitable.  Your emotions trigger your heart to feel things that you would rather not feel, ironic as it may seem.  When falling in love, you expect to get your heart broken along the process.  Even if you do not want to, you cannot help it.

A thing that remains questionable to me is how the feelings of others change all of a sudden?  They make you feel special then next thing you know, they are gone without any explanations.  All you can ever do after that heartbreaking scenario is cry yourself to sleep and ask yourself what you could possibly have done wrong.  After experiencing it, you become such a denial queen/king and make yourself believe that it will be better eventually even if you know it will never be.

Honestly, I do not understand how you can smile all day, but cry yourself to sleep.  How pictures you have taken months or years ago never change, but the people in them do.  How the forever you have always planned turn into a few short months that you would do almost anything just to get back.  How some things can hurt you even though you know for yourself that it is the best thing to do.  How the people who once spent their every second talking to you think that a few minutes of their time is too much to spare.  How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken.  And the most important fact of all, how people can erase you from their lives just because it is easier than working things out.

These unwanted changes are some of the random things I think about everyday.  Deep inside me, I know it will hurt even more if I comprehend these things.  But then I realize, the more I think and get hurt, the more I grasp the fact that some things did not work out because better things await me.  Maybe not now, but soon it will come my way.

TIME FLIES, FEELINGS CHANGE

"People change. Feelings change. It doesn't mean that the love once shared wasn't true and real. It simply just means that sometimes when people grow, they grow apart."

- 500 Days of Summer

Love is something that is meant to be taken seriously.  Problem is, nowadays, saying I love you to someone is as easy as counting 1, 2, 3.  What most people do not realize is that once you say those three words to someone, you make a decision to make that other person assume that he/she is really special to you.  Although some people mean what they say, time flies and feelings change.

Spur of the moment?  It is doing or saying something on impulse or without premeditation.  There are specific moments in our lives wherein the scenario we are in makes us go with the flow.  We do not consider other things that are outside the picture, but we are only focusing on the things that are happening as of the moment.  So, what is the connection of my last statement to spur of the moment?  Let's just say that when we are to overwhelmed with a situation, we tend to do or say things without thinking.  Still confused?  Here is an example:

A girl and a guy just met.  They talked and talked that night to get to know each other even more.  What they do not realize is as they talk, they only think of who the other person is to them and what they feel towards each other.  Because they are too engrossed with the current scenario, they begin to think that they are in love with each other and the other factors do not really matter anymore.  As the days pass by, the burning sensation of this new feeling stays within.  But as time flies, the feelings slowly change into something not so desirable.

It is unknown how our feelings change for people.  It is most likely because there is nothing interesting in the relationship that makes you want to stay.  We cannot control our feelings because it is something that pops out of the blue and makes us go crazy.  The only thing that we can do is to be honest and accept the fact that our feelings have changed.  It will be hard to begin with, but it will be harder if you will prolong the feelings that were never meant for you.